|i had never been this cold
||[Sep. 13th, 2005|11:07 am]
I wanted to rember how it felt like to wake up in a completly different state of mind, with a different body set beside me with different hips i wrapped my arms around so tightly i wouldnt know the difference between their syloette at 3 oclock in the morning, i wanted to forget all of the illusions that i had placed with your name, i wanted to forget with all the reminders that stood beside me and underneath me at every waking moment i atleast had the satisfaction of knowing you had me tattoed on you for the rest of your life and even that you couldnt make yourself forget. I still wanted to call you, see you feel you i still wanted to pretend that after all of this disaster i would still find myself somewhere deep inside of you. As i sat in a place far from home, far from illusions it helped me realize that you, and your beauty werent mine to admire anymore.